…because as if her childhood hadn’t been unstable enough, she had another traumatizing abandonment late last night. At 15 she has more life experience than I probably will in a lifetime- even basic needs are often absent. Are we lucky or cursed that sleep is a gift we can give?
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I’ve been hearing lots of chatter lately about people wondering whether they are where they should be. In relationships, an activity, a possible addiction, with kids (mine’s 15…oy vey), at our school or post, in our industry.
‘I’m done. I’m over it. I can’t do this anymore. Why am I here?’
It doesn’t mater what profession you are in, there are always signs of weary souls wandering around. But in the education profession, we walk a particular line with questions of moving on. We joke at work that it’s like an abusive relationship. We start the year fresh, excited, we get worn down, we are asked of more that we can give, we go unseen, we say we’re done. Then, right before we turn in our papers- TA DA! -we get a break (Spring, Summer, Winter? No difference at all). And in that sweet, sweet freedom, we say…’it’s not so bad.’ Ha! And the cycle continues year after year until we turn around and can’t believe we are getting another five-year paper weight.
It’s like when you go to Target and fill your basket impulsively with a million ridiculous kitchen gadgets, DVDs you’ll never watch, 70 ridiculous lay tiny towels, and adorable stationary sets. You feel so good…until you get to the line and realize you work for the public school system and can’t afford any of that Target magicalness and empty it all but the peanut butter and Cheerios. But the feeling of pretending for a little bit is enough to hold you over. For 2 hours (albeit wasted), you were all 5 (I think) of the Kardashian sisters.
So I started thinking about what factors could be considered when trying to decide if it’s time to move on. I found three, mainly based on my BFF and main man, Viktor Frankl and his Existentialism. If you haven’t read Man’s Search for Meaning, throw your worthless electronic down and run -don’t walk- to a book store near you and get it. Well, unless you are into digital reading, then don’t throw your electronic down, dummy. I’m sorry, that was mean.
Anywho, I think these three things are the most important to consider when trying to decide if it’s time to move on. OK, here goes:
1. Letting go of the past- Have you tried, to the best of your ability, to let go of the past? This includes letting go of things you wish were true (even the age-old). Hanging on to what should or could be only gets us stuck, and keeps us from being able to view our prospects with clarity. You’ve got to let go of this and catalogue what is so that you know what the reality of the situation is.
2. Honest perspective- Have you really truly taken in other perspectives? Like, reeeallllllyyyyy tried. This means understanding the bigger picture, our role in the larger system, and getting clarity on your situation in context of what other people are going through. I know, I know, this seems in contradiction to the first consideration, but I don’t mean stopping on what could be, but understanding our situation in a larger manner to ensure we have not simply lost focus of a world in which we are the center staple.
3. Effort toward contentment- Have you truly tried to find meaning in your situation? This one is a big nod to my Vik (we’re cool like that). A la #2, Frankl points out that Holocaust survivors, POWs, terminally ill, etc. report being able to find meaning in the moment. They can still appreciate something, and feel a meaningful existence by something. This is not to shame goal-seeky people though guys. I mean, a little fire goes a long way… and under the tush pushes us to do some amazing stuff. But this is more like a gut check. Have you truly put effort into finding contentment and holding tight to it? The trick is that you should feel contentment and meaning that is not based on how you feel, but rather your contentment in being a bystander to great things and other people as well.
So here’s the deal. I feel like these are really important to try, BUT they are not the end of the road. Sometimes we do everything we can (these three things included) and still cannot find happiness. It’s not that we’re not trying hard enough, maybe it’s that whatever situation you’re in has run its course. And it’s time to move on. Like, these make up the timeless 90’s movie’s holy grail. If they don’t work, maybe you’ve really exhausted your time and effort, and/or you are STUCK (and probably bitter) and you’ll get your full mojo back after moving on. Of course, if someone keeps moving around and still feels pooty, there might be some other things to contend with- patterns are super revealing.
I recently completed my first lesson of the year. Most of this consisted of Guidance info, school info, graduation requirements, academy information and opportunities, etc. But I also wanted to add a little something for students to think about throughout the year. Classroom instruction is definitely not my strongest point to begin with, but I also realized last year that I went the whole year without explaining the grading scale to my students. In some school systems this may not be necessary, but in mine, where students in 5th grade go by standard-based grading (Developing Proficiency, Proficient, etc) to performance based grading (A, B, C, D, etc), it was total dud move! I had spent all year chasing those kids around wondering why they were so easily accepting Cs! I felt like when I accuse one of my kids for losing something of mine and I make them look all over for it…only to find it was in some hidden place I had put it. Except for there was no way to secretly drop this information somewhere and act like it had been there all along to cover myself (not that I do that at home…).
So, I knew I needed a message. I was also excited that I would have the same group as the one last year- my first experiencing looping with my kids. I had introduced this group of kids to some mindfulness stuff last year, and I decided to keep going with it. Who knew middle school kids would love breathing so much?! I start with basic 4×4 breathing, and then through the year added some simple stretching. I am not sure what direction I will go in this year, but I decided to add this slide to start things off-
Then, I landed what turned out to be a really great message! I love it when that happens…because believe me when I say I have had some flatter than flat lessons in my day. I wanted them to think about perspective in a new way. I figured that concept could be easily tied to something they were way knowledgeable about- selfies. I used some selfies from my family that my own kids had taken.
I asked them to tell me what they noticed about the pictures- what was something they had in common. After a few guesses, they came to describe how they all looked like something was happening that was not. At this point, realizing it was working, I could have drooled on myself I was so excited. But I played it cool, as per usual.
I asked them how the pictures would look different if they were taken from different angles, distances, with different subjects, etc. Once they said that the photos would look completely different, I knew I was on my way and I switched to the plan. I told them we were going to try it out.
I put myself at the front of the room, and the teacher directly across from me in the back. Then I asked someone from class to stand with each of us, and had two more students on each side of the room opposite of each other. Next I stood next to the student by me, and had them move my fingers to where if I made a pinching motion, it looked like I was pinching the head of the teacher. Giggles ensued and we did it a couple of more times. I had the student with me describe what it looked like, then I asked the other students standing and sitting (they all said it looked like I was pinching the air, and a couple said I just looked crazy- both of which were and are accurate). I told them that the student with me would get candy, but no one else did because they were wrong. The rest is pure magic and goes something like this:
Them- What?! That’s not fair!
Me- Why not?! He/she was the only one that got it right. He/she described what I saw!
Them- But! But! That’s not our fault, they were standing there with your perspective!
And I just stood there, with a somewhat sinister surprised happy face. The “ooooooohhhhhs…” came without me even having to say it. I was almost on the floor I could not contain myself. Still cool though.
For the second one, I whispered in the student’s ear that was by me “Mrs./Mr. So-and-so is the best teacher ever!” But I made a snippy, grossed out face. I asked the kids if they thought what I said was positive or negative and they all said negative. When I told them what I’d said, I asked why they thought that, and they all said that it was because they could only see my face. Again with the “oooohhhsss”. Middle school educators, I know you know exactly where my inspiration would come from for this…because now when I hear “he/she is always talking trash about me” I start to twitch. I finished the discussion with this-
I asked the students to keep this lesson in mind throughout the year as they battle relationships, situations, developments, and decisions. I told them to think about the perspectives of others and really try and consider this. To think about how there own perspectives might look different from a different angle. To be willing to discuss the difference in perspectives in situations where people are to seeing eye to eye. And for added measure, I asked them to keep in mind the perspective of the teachers; who get up in front of the class every day. I asked them what they might think if they are in front of 30 people and two of them are snickering or talking- what would they think if it were them out there. And when the kids respond, “if that were me, I would think they were talking about me” I drop the mic and walk out.
(Really, I don’t. I promise to do a solid conclusion to bring things in)
Dudes! Dudes. I totally suck. Since May?! For real?! Hey, it’s part of my process, right? And I’m about to hand in a jip again because I’m just taking a second to stop in and wish everyone a wonderful school year! In all of the students, parent, academics, energy, and craziness (perhaps also a little bureaucracy with a splash of bitterness) let’s have a positive and kind time with everyone and ourselves. Just like I tell my students before a big test- be patient with the test and with yourself. Except it would be to be patient with our industry and ourselves…or something like that. You know what I mean. Here is my beginning of the year board (I blacked out the school name seals because, let’s face it, I’m still a little fuzzy on what we can post on social media). I can’t wait to see my kiddies next week!